Hi, my name is Elise, I’m the Left Brain Intuitive, and welcome to the Left Brain Intuition podcast—a special place where we talk about logic and intuition.
Today I’m going to tell you a story about my life. I call this the diary of a professional intuitive.
When I tell people I’m a professional intuitive, they get this blank look on their face.
Because it’s hard for most of us to relate intuition to a personal experience. We don’t necessarily know what that means. So, for example, I don’t talk to dead people, I don’t help you find your lost keys, and I can’t predict the future. So none of these things mean intuition to me. So what does it mean?
And I think I learn best with hands-on examples, and so in these articles, I tell you a story about a particular moment in my life when an intuitive insight really made a huge difference.
The story I want to tell you today is how I met my partner, Jonathan. We’ve been together for 14 years, 13 years now.
And once in a while, we both get freaked out by how compatible we are. Because we’re not the same, we’re different. But the way that we fit with each other is sometimes we’re like, how is this possible that we’re like perfect puzzle pieces like that? That’s crazy.
And so that’s what I want to tell you about this story of how we got there.
This is not an Instagram story! I’m not sugarcoating things, I’m not going to tell you just the highlight reel. I’m going to tell you the actual real unfolding of this because I think that intuition is useful when we’re in the ditch, you know. Something happened and then we ran into a wall.
That’s when intuition is most useful. So if I was to tell you a story of how we met and it was perfect and we lived together happily ever after, that’s not helpful.
And it’s also not true, and because you’re intuitive, you’ll be able to tell right away. So, as a general principle, everything I do, everything I say, I have a high level of internal coherence and so I’m gonna tell you exactly, you know, when things go right and when things go wrong.
I met Jonathan at work. I was a software engineer, so I met a lot of guys at work. It was mostly guys. I had just come out of a very long relationship. It had been difficult at the end, so I was not looking for a relationship. I was a single mom. I was plenty busy, and I would go out to coffee with two guys from work, and I start to have this like anticipation and fluttering in the morning when I go out to coffee.
The crowd varied. Sometimes there were three or four people total. But in that group, there was one guy that was really attractive, a really cute guy. He was very popular with the women, but he was not like obnoxious or anything like that. So I thought: Oh, I think maybe I find this guy attractive.
That’s why I have this little fluttering and excitement. And we would usually go to lunch or have beers after work with the same group of engineers. We’re a tightly knit team. And so every time that we would go out like that, I would get that little fluttering feeling. And I explained it as, well, I find him attractive.
I wasn’t pursuing a relationship, so I didn’t do anything about it. Now, a few months later, one of the other guys, I was talking with him about running and I had been like a very light jogger, a recreational jogger. And I was saying, I’m not always motivated to go. I wish I had somebody to run with.
And he says, well, I’ve run ultra races. Do you want to go run after work? And we started to do that. And the funny thing that happened is when nobody else was there, right? It was just the two of us. I started to have the fluttering feeling again.
And I thought, oh crap, I was attributing that feeling to the wrong guy.
My logical mind had said: Oh, you’re attracted to this guy because he’s very cute.
When in fact, I was feeling Jonathan’s energy. And when I was around him. And, and we were mostly just doing physical things. We ran together, we went bouldering, rock climbing together, we went snowshoeing together.
So we were really into sports activity.
And so this is what we did primarily, but I would have this fluttering feeling and I just felt really comfortable in the car, even though we’re not talking, driving to wherever we were going, I felt really comfortable with him. I felt his energy.
But, initially, I did not think that was what was going on, and so that was the first intuitive insight that I had was that I had this great compatibility with this guy, even though I didn’t know him that well personally, we were just doing a lot of activities together. Now eventually I told him that I was attracted to him and we started to date.
We were dating maybe for six months and he broke up with me. And you know, he had a good reason. I wanted to move in together, and he didn’t. He had been single for ten years before meeting me. And I was a single mom, and he didn’t want to have kids. And we worked together, and that was a rule of his not to date people he worked with.
So I was violating all the rules here. So after six months, he broke up with me, and I was telling my friend about this. And I was saying, okay, well, that’s it. I’m gonna just we weren’t working together at the time anymore, so I wouldn’t have opportunities to see him as much. I thought, well, that’s it.
I’m just not really going to see him ever again. And she said, I don’t think this story is over.
And this was a pivotal moment because I could have just leave it alone and walked away.
And instead, because I knew she was intuitive, I thought, you know what, I’m not going to be angry about this because I understand why he’s saying, you know, he doesn’t want to live together. That’s just how he feels.
And, and I didn’t want to make myself wrong either. So I thought, well, I feel that, that I want to, but that doesn’t interfere with us being friends.
So we remained friends and kept doing our activities together and then some months later we had a conversation about this and I realized that living together was something that my logical mind wanted because technically that was the next step.
We had been dating for a while, we were good friends, we should move in together. But for him to be, you know, basically becoming a step dad to my son, that did not feel good to him, didn’t feel good to me either, because I didn’t want to bring conflict into my house.
And so, when I realized that, that was another epiphany of intuition, I realized, you know what, is that necessary?
Is that really necessary? That, that thing that my logical mind is telling me is the big obstacle for this relationship. And I realized that it wasn’t. And so we got back together and we lived in our own houses for seven years. And we were very happy. It worked really well for us. I would have my, my son every other week and there were never conflicts in my house because of our relationships.
It was great.
Our logical mind can lead us astray with social rules, conclusions based on erroneous beliefs or old trauma.
But in both these cases, my intuition led the way with a big light.
And I missed it both of these times until later, and I realized: oh yeah!
So eventually John and I found a house that was big enough for the both of us. And we’ve been living together for many years now, five or six years, and it’s been also great. And again, this house was my intuition. It didn’t make any sense. We didn’t need to move. And this was really something that was not logic-based.
But intuitively, I felt like it was time and we were ready. And indeed we were. And it was great.
The reason I wanted to tell you this story is that sometimes we miss intuitive insights that are right there in plain sight. We just explain them away.
So if you are wondering how come I haven’t met my partner or you have a partner and you’ve been going through a rough time, I would really love for you to take a peek at what is your intuition telling you about that relationship.
It might surprise you!
All right, that’s all I have for you today.
I published this podcast on my intuitive community for logical women at leftbrainintuition.com and we would love to have you there.
Talk to you soon!